担心的心情。。

听着你哭，我什么都不能做。。

觉得自己很没用。。只能在这里也跟着流泪。。

心很酸。。很痛。。

但是我知道我必须更更更努力。。

做我应该做的东西。。不放弃！！

一定要完成！！

14/11/11 10.20pm

请记得这一天，这一分，这一秒。。

我答应过的。。我不像他们。。

你应该很清楚我的人。。

没有把握的事情，我不敢给任何的承诺。。

但是如果我肯给，那就请你相信我。。

就如我相信你一样。。:)

我也知道你不好受。。所以我根本没有逼你。。

没有东西可以一下就解决的。。慢慢来吧。。

你可以的。。！

时间，是最好的疗伤方法。。

没有的逼。。真的。。慢慢来。。不要再逼你自己了。。

不然只会更痛苦。。

你和我。。

其实都一样。。

都是同类。。

只是你选者发泄的方法是去喝酒。。麻醉自己。。

而我选的方法是去打球。。跑步。。出汗。。做完后，冷静下来，再想办法解决。。

想不到，继续做。。继续把自己搞得很累很累。。

直道想到办法为止。。

因为我知道没有东西是解决不了。。

方法总是比烦恼多。。

逃避不是解决问题的。。要去面对！！

加油吧。。我会陪着你的。。

只要你肯面对，没有东西是不能的。。

不要小看你自己！ =)

彩虹的出现。。

一道彩虹。。

突然的出现了。。可是也很快的消失了。。

很短暂，可是真的很美好。。

虽然我知道你觉得我不认真。。

可是每一次你问的问题，我都想清楚的。。

我相信我的答案是对的。。

可能你觉得我的答案是在逗你开心，可是我想说的是那些都是我真真的答案。。

所以有很多事情不是我不介意，而是我选着了你。。选择相信你。。

所以我不需要去介意。。也不能介意。。

因为相信你是我应该做的事情啊。。

就算没人相信你，我也不会像他们那样。。

因为当你告诉我时，我知道你说的是很认真的。。

不然你干吗要说呢？你可以继续的骗我啊。。

没必要让我知道你的东西吧？

还有，我说过的。。只要你想找人陪。。我还是会在的。。

可能那不是约定，但是对我来讲已近是很重要了。。

所以我还是会守下去的。。知道吗？=)

别人怎么说是他们的事情。。

为何要理会他们？只要你知道我们都没有骗对方就好啦。。

嘴是人家的，我们不能控制。。

但是我们的事情却是我们自己控制的。。所以我选择了好好地把握。。

我也不希望你会放弃。。

很想念你。。没有你的短信很不习惯。。>_<

到底要怎样？

怎样好？

好烦哦。。

不去，又觉得不舍得。。

去，又觉得不应该。。

满脑子都是烦烦烦烦烦烦~~~！！！

没想到一封短讯可以把我整个晚上的心情给搞乱。。

haix~~到底我是怎样阿。。

得空没事做是吗？

为何又拿来烦？

不是说过把它藏起来的吗？

为何又把它拿出来了？

还要加上JJ Lin 林俊傑 的love you you。。

想不emo都难！！

心情好地落。。可事又可以和谁谈？

有谁是可以明白的？

我。。突然觉得好失败。。

我。。

hoho~

过了这样久没有来我的blog了。。

虽然有几位朋友一直问我问为何一直不update我的blog。。

其实很简单啊。。就是我懒惰咯。。。哈哈!!

经过很久很久后，我发觉我还是我。。

一点也没变。。

换了新电话，新电脑，新车。。很多很多新的东西。。

可是就是有唯一一个没变过。。

我还是我。。那是那个口说很想变可是心里一直变不到的那个我。。

可是对我来说。。

虽然这几个月里，我曾经对别的女生动心，可是在我心里，你的位置还是一样的没有变过。。

我不懂该如何解释。。可是就是这样。。

也不知道是我不敢还是逃避。。

自从和你分手后，我就再也不想开始另一段感情了。。

至少我觉得男女可以做普通朋友啊。。

至少不会分开啊。。

有事又可以和他们聊聊。。也不怕连朋友都做不成。。

这种感觉蛮好的。。

这样对吗？

虽然有时会给别人错觉。。可是只要坦白的说出来。。

事情就可以解决了。。不用怕连朋友多没得做吗。。

多好。。！ 哈哈。。

你也可以说我是自私。。可是对我来说。。

世界上有公平的吗？

没有。。!

如果连自己也不会对自己好。。哪有谁会对你好呢？

所以请别说我自私。。我只是想对我自己好一点罢了。。

完了～

weeee....~

diploma终于完了。。

肩膀轻了好多哦。。

对我来讲。。这将会是一个句号。。

但是我和我的college朋友的友情是不可能完的。。

放心，我一定会继续的烦你们。。哈哈哈～ =D

我不会让你们忘记我的。。赫赫。。

真的真的。。我很想对你们说声谢谢和对不起。。

谢谢你们陪我度过了我最难受和开心的日子。。

我真的不敢想象没有你们，我的diploma会如何过。。

肯定很不好受。。xP

对我来讲。。

Michael,

i know you duno chinese...so purposely type english for u.. hahahaha

you are a real competitor for me.. your words motivate me alot.. thx to all ur compliment such as lala.. noob or etc la.. haha

your words make me feel that i have to work harder to over you.. but too bad.. i think im not good enough... since u get all B.. confirm i cant make it already.. hahahahahahaha! xD

but you really a good fren to me too.. i did learn something from u too.. treat everyone good... this is what u taugh me last time.. but i not sure u still remember anot... hahaha...

one thing, please dun call me lala next time.. im really not a lala ler~ T_T

Hadrian,

you.. a really good good fren to me too.. no matter study, gaming, basketball, badminton.. or i should say it as everything...

you really a very imba guy i have never meet before.. you are really very good in every aspect... if you really interest and working hard in it.. i think it gonna be very hard for us to chase and win u.. you are someone very talent in everything... really d.. sometime i really very envy u.. hahaha

do appreciate everything u got.. and i still remember the day we meet.. haha.. all those fun memories between us.. from sem1 onwards... i do keep all the memories in my mind.. and you are really a very fun + joyful guy! ;)

Vicky,

you a.. really a trouble finder person... haha... everytime ask u check assignment sure can let u find dao problem/mistake/error... haha... but its something good also.. this make u become duo duo yeh like me.. xD

but life is like that geh..have to be someone like u around us to check our things and let us improve to become perfect! thanks to everything u said while im down.. u get what i mean right? haha... memories between us are really very happy too.. thx to u as a treasurer... and also a trip planner which plan lots of trip and also activities for us.. :D

Alvin,

calling the fatty bomb bomb alvin, please report urself when u see this.. haha

alvin~ alvin~ such an optimist person.. its really to find within this town.. you really able to face the problem no matter what situation you are in.. i really very very admire your positive mind... seriously, if i were u.. i confirm cannot continue my life as usual after so many negative things happen around me... i really do happy to see you able to pass every stage successfully.. u taught me that never say never!

i really do happy to meet u.. and able to be one of ur fren... u give me advice and teach me what to do when i face trouble.. you are like a big bro for me... guide me and give important opinion to me when im lost.. just like a bright light in a dark room... thx man.. its great to have you in my life!

but.. please take good care of yourself.. u do know what i mean.. wish to meet u or same class again with u in future! *cheers!*

Chu chu,

chu a~ chu~

life should be colorful and not only black and white...

i think u still remember what i told u before right? i really duno what to write for u here... coz what i feel about u.. i already told u many times ler.. u should know lur ho? xD

just remember one thing.. be optimist! ;D

find me when u need to chat or what... im just a phone call away! *winks*

Bear bear,

mr.Horse! you are a super knowledge man to me.. i believe that u will be able to survive in different situation and enviroment... you a.. really able to chat no matter what topic it is... you are just like a astro machine to me.. got every knowledge with different aspect and able to join anygroup... because of ur joyful look and cute cute + comfortable body... haha!

one thing to tell u... please sleep earlier la.. sleep late will cause u die faster d a~ take care ur body please... xD

Ming,

super duper funny boy i have ever seen... days with you are super fun... jokes that lame than me... i really have to sallute to u.. hahaha... from the first day i meet u.. i know that u gonna be a super fun fren i will have... ;)

thx for bringing all the joy to me in my life... and one sentence will make me think of u forever... ＂真的，假的？＂ ahaha... take care bro..

Lion,

a fren that helps me alot.. i really duno how to thanks you.. fetch me go here and there... really a very helpful fren.. :D

thx for appearing in my life... just live the way u are.. i know u leaving kl to duno where working right? take care.. dun over stress urself.. a coffee a day, keeps the headache away! haha~ =)

JunHong,

although u din always join us for trip.. but i do understand... coz last time im also someone like u... but i did fight for what i want... (i not sure u want trip anot la) but i really like to go trip.. so i always fight for what i want... ;D

for me, you are someone who do not like to try new things... i not sure is it like that la.. but for me d feeling.. you really dislike new things... actually life, no much 2nd chance appear... if got the chance.. got for it... if not later on u will be regret... this is what i have face... just try everything if u got the chance... but what i mean is not those things u shouldn't try a.. haha... very confuse.. i know.. but i think u will understand what i mean ho? xD

and one thing... you are really someone who will work hard for future.. keep this motivation... i like to see when u are doing assignment like MMA or DFD... you will do it with all the knowledge and keep on researching and researching for new info to get A... and what is the part i like most is... u will help and guide me after u finish.. hahaha xD

Wilson,

you a.. i really duno what to say.. i saw a good side of u.. and also bad side of u.. maybe u will continue to say that u are innocent.. but if only me alone dislike u.. then maybe i will admit, its my fault.. but i think that u and me also know whats gonna on right now.. i dun mean to argue with u.. but atleast... think what u did.. before asking others... if you yourself also duno what you did wrong... then its gonna be a big trouble... nothing much, i just wanna say thx for part a diploma d wilson.. but not part b... thats all..

Sentence above is all from dou dou yeh d JH! <3 <3 <3

no offense... =X

and grats to everyone for finishing diploma... wee~ trip coming on!! :D

i really do appreciate that i able to meet u all!

Thank kiu <3 <3 <3

我。。

我。。到了现在。。

变了很多。。应该吧。。

至少我还很清楚有一件事没变过。。

那就是我的心。。

到了现在。。说短不短。。说长不长。。

可是已经6个月了。。

前几晚。。我一下发了两个梦。。

两个都是关于你的。。

两个都是好结果。。

可是这样让我更加难受。。

多莫希望是真的。。

可是偏偏就知道那只是场梦。。

我自问。。

除了我在最低潮那短短的几分钟的讨厌你，

没有遵守一天一场dota的承诺，

喝了少数的酒之外。。

我敢大声的说我没有做过对不起你的事情。。

甚至分手后到了今天。。

我还是一样。。

一样的尊崇你。。满意你的要求。。

你应该很清楚的。。

我已经我所能的满足你了。。

我说过我会用我温暖的手牵着你。。

带温暖给你。。可是我做不到。。

对不起。。应为我不再是你的谁谁谁了。。

没资格在这样做了。。

但是我一定会尽我所能的满足你。。=D

Life

i still remember my own promise..

which is changing myself.. and the deadline is 22 june...

which means few more days to go...

and i think that i really did change..

no matter personality, attitude, outlook, or even the way i solve problems...

im not the guy who u think u know anymore.. frens around me do notice it...

for me, its just a path in my life which i able to improve and changing myself...

although its not the target i want to be, but atleast.. im moving forward... =)

life, its never easy... learning day by day...

growing day by day...

and finally, my diploma is going to end... last paper exam on coming tuesday... and there is it...

what i able to say is... i do appreciate the time with my college matey... having fun around the college and lots of place... trips around Malaysia... jokes with lecturers...

memories with them its gonna be part of my life and will not be erase!!

sometime, i do wish there is a delete button which able to highlight those unhappy memories and just delete it by clicking a button... but life, its not gonna follow your instruction or going on with what u want...

sometimes, we just have to accept the fact.. although its never easy.. but since it happens, then just takes time to accept it... 1month, 2month, or even longer... nothing is imposible...once u get used to it.. and there is no problem for u anymore...

its been 6months already... and those memories between us is still in my brain... those memories is already part of my life which its unable to be forget.. and i really wondering.. how could u forget our memories so easy? haha... but its ok la.. since u chosen that way, and i couldn't stop u.. just make sure that no regrets in life... once u chosen it.. and thats the path u heading to... no turning back is available... just wanted to wish u goodluck...

and i do really hope we can be back like how we used to be last time.. jokes around everywhere... its fun to chat with u and sharing problems together.. miss those days~ =D

after all, i have to admit that im not that young anymore.. notice that i meet lots of obstacles and gain lot of knowledge about handling problem... but still, life gonna give me more trouble and let me learn more... this is life.. learning non stop... facing lots of problems... but i do believes that, way of solving problems is more than problems happening... (;