=(

said le will not appear means will not appear...
disappear on one person nia ma.. got so hard meh?
just only one..!
there are few thousand million, uncountable human on earth..
just disappear from one person isn't hard at all~
just u wanna do it or not~

but sometime,
even if i want..
even i tried my best..
even i really MIA...
got no reason why..
i just cant control myself...

sorry...

Melaka Trip~ weeee~ =D

Just back from melaka yesterday~
superb tired and fun trip! =D
love it alot.. haha... ^^
we reach melaka at about 1pm on friday..
then went to a shop makan cendol.. yum yum~!
a cold cold cendol at a hot hot weather...
this is totally awesome! weeheee~

went for a walk at "red house"
famous place at melaka.. no nid explain bout it much ho?
as a malaysian.. we should know about it~ xD

as you can see from the picture below~

the weather is super HOT! XP

Me< > Lion

btw, much more picture will be upload soon..
due to the slowpoke lion havent upload it yet~ xP

after that, we went back our villa have some rest and playing water? LOL!
of course, poker is somethings cannot be miss out in our gang! XD
some poker, some playing water, some playing ball...
everyone seems so busy ar? XD
after around 2 hour of playing.. went shower and rest awhile

ard 7pm at nite, went to jongker street to hunt some snacks and things...
especially is hunt chicks which michael despo for it..! XD
and as usual, we failed~ ><
but seriously, jongker street's pasar malam is different with KL~
too bad its raining... if not gonna be very nice! XP

ard 9.30pm reach villa and start our bbq dinner!
*everyone sibei hungry edy* XD
chiong all food and drinks..
then some fall asleep, some jump to pool and continue the fun, some continue bbq enjoy bacoon~ xD

next day went to seremban eat bbq crab~
er.. not that nice as i expect..
but ok la.. better than ntg to eat ma~ xD

Basically whole trip is really very enjoy, happy and fun!
this is the trip that i want since last year~
but due to assignment and exams..~ =.="
so we delay it until now..
but..it is not 100% enjoy for me nor.. XP
or maybe is this is not the fun i want..
still havent get used to life without you..
wishing the day come as soon as possible..
=(

别让双鱼伤心

双鱼是多情

但也专情

双鱼多情 但最终心里只为一个人付出

双鱼无法对几个人同时付出真心!

双鱼是有韧性的

即使被伤了很多次

依然固执的认为

真诚一定能换来真心

但迎来的只是直接的打击

双鱼搞不懂为什么会如此

双鱼其实不怕拒绝

但最怕冷漠的拒绝

如果被拒绝 那么就彻底些

双鱼会默默的惦记对方

即使对方回应少的可怜

双鱼也会放下身价

主动发个短信打个电话

但往往得到的是冷漠的回应

双鱼一直在挣扎

因为真心喜欢

把自己逼到了悬崖边

双鱼想通了

真诚的心变成了灰色

热情的态度变的冰冷

让双鱼放弃不容易

但让你认为可以挽回看起来没脾气的双鱼

那你就大错特错了

如果说白羊女的冷漠

狮子座的冷漠是冰山

那双鱼的冷漠就是北极上万年的冰层

所以太多人搞不懂

为什么双鱼会突然变成一个人

那么冷漠

其实双鱼也搞不懂

为什么没有人敢接受自己的爱情

双鱼就是这么固执

爱了就要有回报

爱了就要YES OR NO

给我希望

却时刻让我绝望

再有韧性的双鱼

也会在这种打击下无情的离开!

为什么温柔的双鱼就这么走了

我只能笑笑....

为什么一开始就不珍惜呢

怪谁呢!

一个冷漠的双鱼

会远离任何与你有关的事情

你的眼泪

你的热情

你的挽回

物及必反在双鱼身上会得到完美的体现

有太多说人反感双鱼的墨迹和多想

如果不爱你如果不喜欢你..

双鱼真懒的对自己不感兴趣的人墨迹

这也是为什么

一方面双鱼挺能说的

一方面双鱼却很少有朋友

人际圈也很窄

这也是双鱼冷漠态度的另一面!

双鱼觉得没什么

朋友不在多少

在于真诚

双鱼不会像白羊那样和一群朋友打成一片

因为太累

因为对所有人真诚本是不可能的事

因为双鱼太讨厌虚伪!

12星座的结束

意味着轮回

双鱼有时候的心态真就像个老人

因为懂的太多

所以打心里不想伤害对方

但再慈祥的老人也有不满的时候!

双鱼永远也无法拒绝一个爱听自己墨迹

看着自己的双眼顽皮着微笑的老公

因为在双鱼来看

诉说是重视

倾听是尊重!

让双鱼专心对你太容易

只需要向双鱼诉说你的心事与不开心

同时倾听双鱼的喋喋不修就可以了

难道双鱼的墨迹就这么让你厌烦么!!

别忘记了 双鱼的墨迹蕴涵着许多用的找的道理!

双鱼的墨迹和忽悠完全是两回事!

一个轮回往往会忘记前生的所有

一旦双鱼爱的人让自己心灰意冷

绝对轮回

那么你就失去一个拥有一生幸福与被爱的机会!

别尝试让双鱼冷漠!

除非你真的不在乎

不然你的冷漠只能被双鱼加倍奉还

不留余地

不留情面!

敲破白羊女狮子女天平女的冰层不难

但如果让双鱼对你的心冰封

那纵然用三味真火也无济于事!

笑着面对！

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA~
made this decision already.. =D
no regret this time..
this gonna be the last thing i do for you!
一定要幸福!

If you love two people at the same time, choose the second one.

Because if you truly loved the first one, you wouldn’t love another one

saw this quote on twitter today..
its so meaningful..
and dun tell me about if 3rd one appear...LOL!
the third one will never appear if u love either the first one or the second one~
haha..

when you make a decision already..
please do not regret with it..
here is a story about it.. =D

one day, a teacher gave an opportunity to two student..
ask both of them to walk in a apple farm and choose an apple..
both of them is asked to chose the best apple according to what they want..
they can only walk from front to back..
no return..
once u chose the apple than that apple gonna be yours..

The student A choose one after few trees...
and student B choose one when he walk until last few trees....
but end up both regretting..

Student A regret for choosing an apple too early..
because he meet a better apple after choosing the apply in his hand...
Student B regret for not choosing apple earlier..
because when he chose apple that time..
he notice that there is no better apple at the back row anymore...

Conclusion :
No matter which decision you make..
dun regret!
See clearly is that what you want..
then just move on with the decision u made!
^^

如果有一个女生或男生

放下自己的身段主动联系你

一次……

两次……

三次……

如果有一个女生或男生

放下所谓的尊严

有事没事都联系你

一天……

两天……

三天……

或者

你觉得Ta很廉价

或许

你根本不在乎

甚至

你以为一切都是理所当然的

只是Ta毕竟只是一个人

一个很平凡的女孩男孩

Ta也需要有人疼、有人照顾

终有一天Ta会累了倦了

Ta会哭着下定决心再也不主动了

因为每一次的主动

换来的只是更深的伤害

Ta宁愿没有这样一个借口

让自己痛苦

Ta会离开

再也不打扰你的生活

Ta会离开

悄无声息

从此你的生活不会再被打扰

突然的感谢罢了

其实在爱情里只要幸福

主动与否并不重要

只是不算爱情的爱情

主动的代价则显得太大了

说一句最难听的俗语

人都爱犯贱

不属于自己的东西

却花很大的气力去追求去挽留

最后还会被伤的遍体鳞伤

什么世界上最遥远的距离不是我在你面前你却看不见我

而是我上线了你却隐身了

我隐身了你却上线

其实我们很多时候

没有必要挽留不属于自己的东西

要找就找个深爱自己的Ta

毕竟感情是两个人的事情了

你一个人再累、再去用心呵护

感情最终还是会破裂

希望大家

放下该放下的

珍惜该珍惜的

因为人生很多时候都在不断的选择

失去的只能说

那是不属于你的

就算你留下了

那也不是你想要的结果

Ta只会对你热几天冷几天

看人家心情

你会隔几天心就被刺痛

没有开始就不会有结束

所以希望大家开始的时候都慎重

更希望男生都能够大度点专一点

既然选择那个女孩就要给她幸福

别做对不起女孩的事

女孩也都大度点理解点

有时候给男孩留点尊严

有时候别太孩子气了

爱毕竟是两个人心灵碰撞的结晶

真爱无限

希望大家都能找见自己的另一半

别搞的心灵憔悴

珍惜身边的彼此

我想我爱的不是他

我爱的是有他的那段时间

valentine's day

Its 14/02 again..

another lonely valentine..

i tot i'll be with you to celebrate this special date..

but things change...

plan gone..

but its ok with it..

i still got frens

thx to my college mates who date me out after the class and celebrate this unique day..

and we known it as gay day for us.. coz all of us is guy! LOL! =D

just notice that..

its already 4 weeks...

but things in my mind din change much...

u are still the one that i miss most until now..

but what i can do is to force myself not to think...

and keep on telling myself that i dun care.. non of my business... u r not the special one for me anymore... so ur things its not related to me anymore... =D

hope this lies will become fact soon~

its never easy to put down...

after giving me so much memories and caring...

this period with you its not fake.. everything is real..

u just gave me lots of memories~ =D

haha.... past is still past..

so i'll walk back my path very soon... will not disturb u anymore! XD

college starts ytd..

im really have to start my own new life..

i really gonna start hardworking chiong back my study this sem...

i wanted to get A for this last sem..

no more joy or laziness pls!

hope everything will go smoothly for me nor...

recently watched back 海派甜心..

really very touch...

天意弄人...

although lots of problems happen, but when both of the lovely ones able to walk back on the same way...

its very very sweet... very very touch... and i cant control my tear~ XP

don't know when i'll meet my last one and stop being hurt...

what i have now is memories which unable to be play back..

and nothing much i can do..

haha...notice that my post is so confuse...

yea.. this is what my mind thinking..

i really duno also...

my mind also very luan... i duno what im thinking too...

haha~ sot jo! =D

feeling better! =)

feeling better alot!

atleast no insomnia and able to sleep til 12+ noon today morning! LOL!

i was so surprise when my mum came in my room and wake me up today morning..

opps.. i mean noon! LOL!!!

i cant believe that i able to sleep til so late...

its been months that i din't sleep so well already~ =)

thank kiu to a friend who tell me something...

and indirectly helps me..

and i think he duno that he help me already too.. hahahahaha :D

anyway, thx william.. =)

watched all well end well ytd~

its awesome..

able to enchant some knowledge over the movie...

its funny, meaningful and lame! XD

I wanted to thanks nick, vivian, and kei as my cousin...

they acompany me when im down..

they din ask much about what happen but they just bring me out..

cheer me up...

and cares about me alot..

Thank Kiu...

and of course... chu, ivan and lion too...

both of them did lots of things for me too! :D

thanks guys.. u all really helps me alot when i need friends or someone to be around...

appreciate what you all did to help me...

lastly, i really wanted to say again...

im enough with this...

tml is a new day for me..

new sem starts..

emo, its time for me to leave you...

no use i continue emo like that...

nothing will change...

but what i know is..

u n him really happy then ok edy! =)

teeeheee.... u happy then i happy.. remember i said before rite?

but i just hope we able to be back frens like last time..

maybe really need some time to be back to last time gua...

i dun wanna lose a fren like u... =X

hope u understand~ XP

direction~

awww..

i need a guidance ler...

outlook direction found...

but attitude direction duno yet ler...

lots of my frens said not good to change..

just be back myself will do..

but i don't know ler...

i feel like changing...

this type of attitude will only hurting myself non stop...

i dun wan to hurt myself anymore...

i duno how long i can stand... =.="

any suggestion of outlook and attitude to follow? XD

i know i know...

lots of people say~

just be yourself...

er.. act i just wanna try a new type of attitude nia..

if i dun like it..i will change it back to myself..

and of course.. i need help now XP

can anyone tell me my old attitude last time? @@!

do anyone still remember it?

can please kindly leave a comment on the chat at the right side?

please do not hesitate to say it out..

just honestly say out and thank kiu! :D

很失望！

真的真的很失望~

当初是你讲我们可以继续做朋友或知己的。。

但是现在呢？

你对我。。

比普通朋友都不如!

别讲谈天，连我跟你开个玩笑都讲不关我的事~

那还有什么要谈？

你因该很知道我不喜欢人家对我讲不关我的事的。。

我有和你讲过的。。

我知道你和我要有一定的距离。。

但是如果你我心中都没事了，那还要怕什么?

我已经放开了。。

只是有时想起而emo下罢了。。

我已经没事了。。

但是你对我的态度真的很不好。。

如果你连朋友都不想做那我无话可说。。

让我知道就好。。

我会离开的！

我真的很很失望~

成长中~

tik tok tik tok tik tok~
every second is passing now..
and im growing day by day...
hair also getting longer and longer...
3weeks edy...
and its useless for me to continue doing this...
why not i put down everything, and try my best to find back myself??
我想為自己找一個藉口，一個讓自己停下來的藉口.....
不願別人看見自己的傷口，不想讓自己周圍的人但心，不想讓別人同情自己..
没有人会真的帮我的..除了真心的好友..但是不多...

its enough..
no point still being so emo..
its time to find back myself..
that hyperactive.. talk active... super lamer...
what else? @@?!
haha.. dun care la..
its time to be back to myself and continue my path~ =)
but of course..
my changing will never stop..
i will still continue change my attitude and outlook as well..

The reason why i want to change is because...
the same problem happens for two times...
i think its not their fault.. its my fault...
if not why the same problem happen to me again?
so, after so many nites of figuring...
i guess i know whats the problem already.. and im gonna change it..=)

recently keep on repeating an old song
安静 - Jay Chou
have a try of it.. its like singing my mood now...
and of course.. not only jay chou..
Danson Tang's new album also very good in healing my broken heart! =D
music do reminds me of her.. but it also the best things to heal it up..
atleast i dare to listen those music which is related to her now..
and i able to control my tears edy! teeehheeee~ =)

aww...everyone starting they college, skul and work...
but i still having 1 week holidays.... damn sienx neh~ ><
any plan ma? i dun wanna stay at home alone! T.T
please bring me out~ xP

STUPID

how many times i told myself
not to see..
not to care..
not to text..
not to do..
not to listen..

but why i just cant control myself...
the way u treat me is hurting me alot...
even my heart is trying to be fren with you also hard..
the way u treat me.. is like treating someone worse than a friend..
u make me feel like... aw.. i duno how to say it anymore..
suan le bah...

happy, its not hard..
i can smile..
can laugh..
can crazy and mad as last time...
but.. this kind of happy is not what i want..
from the moment im with you..
the happiness that i get from you..
its like.. a sweet for me..
once i taste it..
i cant forget the taste.. and it attract me to eat it more and more...
and thats the reason i stop eating lolipop until now...
because that is the sweet i don't have in my life... and i really want to feel it again...
too bad everything its too late...

活在怀念中的人都不能真得很开心，因为只是会怀念而错过和珍惜身边的人。。
thats what i used to say to you..
but i forget to say it to myself too.. xP
its time for me to let go and start for my own life and chiong for my own future..
haha.. i know i know..
i said this sentence alot of times...
but im a pieces horoscope..
dreaming is the most happy moment for pieces...
thats why im one of that like to dream non stop too~
and i really trying my best to stop thinking and face the reality myself..
atleast i know that without you, i still have few frens beside me..
which able to acompany and support me when i need them...
thx to those who really being with me for so long..
especially lion, beh and chu chu~
u all really help me alot..
gave me lots of suggestion and advice on how to solve problems...
thank kiu~ :)

last but not least,
if this is what u really wants...
i think i should do it as what you want me to do...
no point i still doing things like that...
totally no point...
its enough~

新年快了！ Happy CNY! :D

Happy chinese new year guys! :D
New beginning for me!
everything gonna change~
changing need time, not a short period..
as i used to promise myself..
23/6/2011 will be the date to see back this few months things..
and see the process of changing...
of course there will be negative and positive...
even its bad, i dun mind also..
because is a way to protect myself from being hurt~

如果我从没遇见你，如果我从没爱上你，如果我一开始没坚信，
也许我就不会是现在的这个自己。
但是我不后悔，因为你也给了我美好的回忆。
这几个月里，我看到了很多，学了很多，作了很多，了解了很多
很多很多平时没有看到，学到，做到，了解到的事。

but i really din expect we will end so fast..
u are the one to make me believe in love..
and the one i love after 3 years din't couple..
but then everything end up with the same ending as my past..
after this time, i really no confident to start another new relationship anymore..
really duno how to trust and love another girl i guess...
really need longer time to get used to it...xP

现实是很残酷的。。
不想在做好人了。。
这样用心对待朋友。。有用吗？
没用！当我需要朋友陪，聊天，谈心事时。。
没一个出现。。
真得很失望～～
发觉对人太好也是一种不良行为。。
这样可能会害了他们。。
一直活在人家的帮助下。。
这样会造成别人学不到新的东西。。
还会遇到麻烦就找你。。
这样的话，你想帮的那个人会成长吗？
不会！
不如你让他常使他想要的东西？
可能这样的他学到的东西可能更多！

Past is Past...
Its already 12am..
Happy Chinese New Year Everyone! =)
wish everyone have a nice and happy year!
lets forget the past and start working hard for our future..
nothing is imposible.. trust yourself more than everything..
believe in miracle so it will happen~
lets smile to face the world! :D