空间和时间。。

对你我他。。

大家都需要一定的时间来忘记，来放手。。

没有人可以一下子放弃一切。。

如果可以的话，那个人就是没有对他作过的事情认真过。。

只要认真地做一样东西，哪样东西就会变成一种习惯。。

而习惯部只说不做就可以不做的。。

习惯，是一种每天做。。

就算再累，再辛苦。。

也会一样做下去的事情。。

爱一个人也可以是一种习惯。。

而这种习惯不能一下就没了。。

一旦没了。。就会很想念。。

为何会没了。。为何会这样。。

总觉得怪怪的。。好像总是少了一些东西这样。。

一天可以一直为了这个而想个不停。。

想一些有的没的。。

就是不能让自己停下来。。

结果就把自己弄得很累很累。。

希望累可以停止自己继续想下去。。

可是可以吗？

难道累完了就没事吗？

原来不是的。。

类了。。很自动的，自己就会休息。。

让自己在一个没有别人的地方，听着歌，躺着，慢慢的思想。。

想下应该怎么做。。

怎么去面对。。

怎么去解决。。

人，可以想很多东西。。

可是到底会做吗？

会做，又能维持几久呢？

竟然已经决定了。。

就不应该回头。。

坚持下去。。

可是每一样东西都需要时间。。

时间就是疗伤的最好方法。。

不要逼自己了。。

慢慢来吧。。你可以的！ =)

这几天，我不想烦你。。

让你一个人想想。。到底你想怎样。。

难道继续这样下去就可以吗？

当初你和我说的未来呢？

是梦，还是真的未来。。

决定就在你手里。。

没有人可以改变你的未来。。

你的生活该怎么过是由你自己决定的。。

开开心心的过一天，还是每天都提不起劲？

但是我说过，不管你决定是什么，我也会支持。。

我给过的承诺，我一定会做到。。

在不开心也会过去的。。

别让你身边的朋友和亲人担心了。。

该醒醒了。。

为何不是我？

为何你需要面对这些问题？

看到你被他伤了又伤。。

感觉很不好受。。

为何还有为一个不值得的人伤害自己？

你时常问我值不值得。。

但是你有问过你自己值得吗？

他的一通电话就可以把你的心情搞乱。。

让你心酸。。让你心痛。。

到底为什么？

为什么还要继续。。

为什么放弃不了？

为什么还要折磨自己？

有时候，我在想，折磨你的事情为何不发生在我身上？

为何不让我代替你承受。。

看到你这样，我得心很痛。。

你一天比一天更难受，又放不下。。

至少我再难受也可以撑得下去。。但是你呢？

你这样折磨自己。。身体可以撑多久？

照顾好你自己啦。。别再让你自己生病了。。

加油吧。。

再难过得也会过。。撑着点。。

你可以的！ =)

为什么？

第一个为什么。。

为什么我的认真，换来的总是伤害。。

难道认真地对待爱情也错吗？

难道那一方认真就是会被伤害吗？

难道爱情真的不能认真的吗？

一旦认真，就很难抽身。。

我相信这一点每个人都知道吧。。

那为何我们还有认真地对待每一段爱情呢？

难道人本来就是喜欢被伤害？

还是不应该认真地对待每一段爱情？

我。。越来越不明白了。。

不想再认真地对待每一件事，每一个人，每一样东西。。

第二个为什么。。

为什么我要做好人？

到底为什么？

做好人又不会有人珍惜。。

做好人只会给人利用。。

利用后就称赞一句。。哇塞，你真好人哦。。

然后继续给人利用。。

还以为做好人会有人喜欢。。

可是我现在才知道。。

因为我被认为是好人，所以决定放弃我。。

不想伤害我。。这就是好人的下场？

结果还是被放弃了。。有用吗？

做好人。。这就是我想要的吗？

不再是了。。

你会说你变了。。那我告诉你，我也会变得！

第三个为什么。。

为什么你这样的坚持？

为什么明知没结果还是要坚持？

为什么不跳出那个圈圈。。

你有真真的试过吗？

你肯定你的坚持可以得到幸福吗？

难道你真的想再试一次吗？

那我给。。我不烦你。。你想怎样就怎样。。

时间，我多的事。。你可以给时间他。。我也可以给时间你。。

我等得起！！

就看看谁的坚持比较好吧。。＝）

第四个为什么。。

为什么你要把自己变成一堆烂泥？

你明明可以很好的。。为什么要拿自己出气？

看到你，我很心痛。。

为了一个不应该为的人，而把自己搞得不像样。。

难道这样做有用吗？

如果是的话，那我也来试试。。

反正我也没烂过。。试下也可以吧。。

第五个为什么。。

为什么要给了我希望，然后又亲手毁掉它？

为什么要这样的残忍？！

难道现在很痛苦吗？

痛苦过你想念他吗？

为什么要这样对我呢？

为什么偏偏是我？

难道就是我好骗？还是真的是我的问题？

一片蓝蓝的天本来很美好的。。突然一道彩虹出现了。。

把那片蓝蓝的天染上了颜色。。可是就突然又消失了。。

那片蓝蓝的天也因此不再那么美好了。。

第六个为什么。。

为什么我这样的相信你，可是换来的只是怀疑？

难道我一直以来都是信不过的吗？

给你怀疑的那一刻。。心真的很痛。。

根本没想过连你也会不信我。。

听到你那句不信我的话，我简直崩溃了。。

难道我就是这样的不可靠吗？

难道我看起来就是那样的吗？

难道我会在他面前乱乱说话的吗？

我。。真的无言了。。

第七个为什么。。

为什么要这样？

我们不是好好的吗？

为什么突然听了几句话就要放弃？

为了几句话就放弃我。。

难道我就是这麽得不值得你珍惜吗？

还是你根本不打算珍惜我？

我已经不知道你在想什么了。。

一直以来，我不给我自己累。。因为我知道你比我更累，所以我一定要撑着。。

不然就不能陪你啊。。

可是现在的我。。

真的很累。。很累。。。

不想再撑下去了。。

我也想离开。。

第八个为什么。。

为什么我会放不下。。

我越来越讨厌我对爱情的固执。。

我不喜欢这样。。

为何我不能像别人一样。。

一样的潇洒。。一样的解脱。。

为何我会为了你而在折磨自己？

我努力的一切。。有用吗？

我不知道。。很灰。。

第九个为什么。。

为什么我就这样的放弃。。

因为我知道你是真的很爱很爱他。。

所以就算我再怎样努力也没用。。

你的心也只会有他。。

那我为何不让你去争取呢？

但是我希望他会好好的珍惜你。。真的。。＝）

第十个为什么。。

为什么我的命就是这样。。

为什么每次当我想认真的时候。。

都会给人放弃。。

为什么想找一个普普通通的人来爱也这样的痛苦？

难道我就是不可能被爱吗？

到底是不是我的问题？

我。。就是。。这样的让人讨厌吗？

好开心！！

哇塞。。

竟然开始聊起天。。

不知不觉也已经一点半了。。

谢谢你陪我哦。。

一定要快点好起来！

＝）

今晚有了俩个朋友陪我。。

寂寞和孤单。。

你们让我感觉很冷很冷。。

有点累了。。

你对我很冷。。让我很不好受。。

有种觉得是我在烦着你。。

不知道该怎样。。

喜欢一个人。。不是应该努力争取吗？

难道我又做错了吗？

担心的心情。。

听着你哭，我什么都不能做。。

觉得自己很没用。。只能在这里也跟着流泪。。

心很酸。。很痛。。

但是我知道我必须更更更努力。。

做我应该做的东西。。不放弃！！

一定要完成！！

14/11/11 10.20pm

请记得这一天，这一分，这一秒。。

我答应过的。。我不像他们。。

你应该很清楚我的人。。

没有把握的事情，我不敢给任何的承诺。。

但是如果我肯给，那就请你相信我。。

就如我相信你一样。。:)

我也知道你不好受。。所以我根本没有逼你。。

没有东西可以一下就解决的。。慢慢来吧。。

你可以的。。！

时间，是最好的疗伤方法。。

没有的逼。。真的。。慢慢来。。不要再逼你自己了。。

不然只会更痛苦。。

你和我。。

其实都一样。。

都是同类。。

只是你选者发泄的方法是去喝酒。。麻醉自己。。

而我选的方法是去打球。。跑步。。出汗。。做完后，冷静下来，再想办法解决。。

想不到，继续做。。继续把自己搞得很累很累。。

直道想到办法为止。。

因为我知道没有东西是解决不了。。

方法总是比烦恼多。。

逃避不是解决问题的。。要去面对！！

加油吧。。我会陪着你的。。

只要你肯面对，没有东西是不能的。。

不要小看你自己！ =)

彩虹的出现。。

一道彩虹。。

突然的出现了。。可是也很快的消失了。。

很短暂，可是真的很美好。。

虽然我知道你觉得我不认真。。

可是每一次你问的问题，我都想清楚的。。

我相信我的答案是对的。。

可能你觉得我的答案是在逗你开心，可是我想说的是那些都是我真真的答案。。

所以有很多事情不是我不介意，而是我选着了你。。选择相信你。。

所以我不需要去介意。。也不能介意。。

因为相信你是我应该做的事情啊。。

就算没人相信你，我也不会像他们那样。。

因为当你告诉我时，我知道你说的是很认真的。。

不然你干吗要说呢？你可以继续的骗我啊。。

没必要让我知道你的东西吧？

还有，我说过的。。只要你想找人陪。。我还是会在的。。

可能那不是约定，但是对我来讲已近是很重要了。。

所以我还是会守下去的。。知道吗？=)

别人怎么说是他们的事情。。

为何要理会他们？只要你知道我们都没有骗对方就好啦。。

嘴是人家的，我们不能控制。。

但是我们的事情却是我们自己控制的。。所以我选择了好好地把握。。

我也不希望你会放弃。。

很想念你。。没有你的短信很不习惯。。>_<

到底要怎样？

怎样好？

好烦哦。。

不去，又觉得不舍得。。

去，又觉得不应该。。

满脑子都是烦烦烦烦烦烦~~~！！！

没想到一封短讯可以把我整个晚上的心情给搞乱。。

haix~~到底我是怎样阿。。

得空没事做是吗？

为何又拿来烦？

不是说过把它藏起来的吗？

为何又把它拿出来了？

还要加上JJ Lin 林俊傑 的love you you。。

想不emo都难！！

心情好地落。。可事又可以和谁谈？

有谁是可以明白的？

我。。突然觉得好失败。。

我。。

hoho~

过了这样久没有来我的blog了。。

虽然有几位朋友一直问我问为何一直不update我的blog。。

其实很简单啊。。就是我懒惰咯。。。哈哈!!

经过很久很久后，我发觉我还是我。。

一点也没变。。

换了新电话，新电脑，新车。。很多很多新的东西。。

可是就是有唯一一个没变过。。

我还是我。。那是那个口说很想变可是心里一直变不到的那个我。。

可是对我来说。。

虽然这几个月里，我曾经对别的女生动心，可是在我心里，你的位置还是一样的没有变过。。

我不懂该如何解释。。可是就是这样。。

也不知道是我不敢还是逃避。。

自从和你分手后，我就再也不想开始另一段感情了。。

至少我觉得男女可以做普通朋友啊。。

至少不会分开啊。。

有事又可以和他们聊聊。。也不怕连朋友都做不成。。

这种感觉蛮好的。。

这样对吗？

虽然有时会给别人错觉。。可是只要坦白的说出来。。

事情就可以解决了。。不用怕连朋友多没得做吗。。

多好。。！ 哈哈。。

你也可以说我是自私。。可是对我来说。。

世界上有公平的吗？

没有。。!

如果连自己也不会对自己好。。哪有谁会对你好呢？

所以请别说我自私。。我只是想对我自己好一点罢了。。

完了～

weeee....~

diploma终于完了。。

肩膀轻了好多哦。。

对我来讲。。这将会是一个句号。。

但是我和我的college朋友的友情是不可能完的。。

放心，我一定会继续的烦你们。。哈哈哈～ =D

我不会让你们忘记我的。。赫赫。。

真的真的。。我很想对你们说声谢谢和对不起。。

谢谢你们陪我度过了我最难受和开心的日子。。

我真的不敢想象没有你们，我的diploma会如何过。。

肯定很不好受。。xP

对我来讲。。

Michael,

i know you duno chinese...so purposely type english for u.. hahahaha

you are a real competitor for me.. your words motivate me alot.. thx to all ur compliment such as lala.. noob or etc la.. haha

your words make me feel that i have to work harder to over you.. but too bad.. i think im not good enough... since u get all B.. confirm i cant make it already.. hahahahahahaha! xD

but you really a good fren to me too.. i did learn something from u too.. treat everyone good... this is what u taugh me last time.. but i not sure u still remember anot... hahaha...

one thing, please dun call me lala next time.. im really not a lala ler~ T_T

Hadrian,

you.. a really good good fren to me too.. no matter study, gaming, basketball, badminton.. or i should say it as everything...

you really a very imba guy i have never meet before.. you are really very good in every aspect... if you really interest and working hard in it.. i think it gonna be very hard for us to chase and win u.. you are someone very talent in everything... really d.. sometime i really very envy u.. hahaha

do appreciate everything u got.. and i still remember the day we meet.. haha.. all those fun memories between us.. from sem1 onwards... i do keep all the memories in my mind.. and you are really a very fun + joyful guy! ;)

Vicky,

you a.. really a trouble finder person... haha... everytime ask u check assignment sure can let u find dao problem/mistake/error... haha... but its something good also.. this make u become duo duo yeh like me.. xD

but life is like that geh..have to be someone like u around us to check our things and let us improve to become perfect! thanks to everything u said while im down.. u get what i mean right? haha... memories between us are really very happy too.. thx to u as a treasurer... and also a trip planner which plan lots of trip and also activities for us.. :D

Alvin,

calling the fatty bomb bomb alvin, please report urself when u see this.. haha

alvin~ alvin~ such an optimist person.. its really to find within this town.. you really able to face the problem no matter what situation you are in.. i really very very admire your positive mind... seriously, if i were u.. i confirm cannot continue my life as usual after so many negative things happen around me... i really do happy to see you able to pass every stage successfully.. u taught me that never say never!

i really do happy to meet u.. and able to be one of ur fren... u give me advice and teach me what to do when i face trouble.. you are like a big bro for me... guide me and give important opinion to me when im lost.. just like a bright light in a dark room... thx man.. its great to have you in my life!

but.. please take good care of yourself.. u do know what i mean.. wish to meet u or same class again with u in future! *cheers!*

Chu chu,

chu a~ chu~

life should be colorful and not only black and white...

i think u still remember what i told u before right? i really duno what to write for u here... coz what i feel about u.. i already told u many times ler.. u should know lur ho? xD

just remember one thing.. be optimist! ;D

find me when u need to chat or what... im just a phone call away! *winks*

Bear bear,

mr.Horse! you are a super knowledge man to me.. i believe that u will be able to survive in different situation and enviroment... you a.. really able to chat no matter what topic it is... you are just like a astro machine to me.. got every knowledge with different aspect and able to join anygroup... because of ur joyful look and cute cute + comfortable body... haha!

one thing to tell u... please sleep earlier la.. sleep late will cause u die faster d a~ take care ur body please... xD

Ming,

super duper funny boy i have ever seen... days with you are super fun... jokes that lame than me... i really have to sallute to u.. hahaha... from the first day i meet u.. i know that u gonna be a super fun fren i will have... ;)

thx for bringing all the joy to me in my life... and one sentence will make me think of u forever... ＂真的，假的？＂ ahaha... take care bro..

Lion,

a fren that helps me alot.. i really duno how to thanks you.. fetch me go here and there... really a very helpful fren.. :D

thx for appearing in my life... just live the way u are.. i know u leaving kl to duno where working right? take care.. dun over stress urself.. a coffee a day, keeps the headache away! haha~ =)

JunHong,

although u din always join us for trip.. but i do understand... coz last time im also someone like u... but i did fight for what i want... (i not sure u want trip anot la) but i really like to go trip.. so i always fight for what i want... ;D

for me, you are someone who do not like to try new things... i not sure is it like that la.. but for me d feeling.. you really dislike new things... actually life, no much 2nd chance appear... if got the chance.. got for it... if not later on u will be regret... this is what i have face... just try everything if u got the chance... but what i mean is not those things u shouldn't try a.. haha... very confuse.. i know.. but i think u will understand what i mean ho? xD

and one thing... you are really someone who will work hard for future.. keep this motivation... i like to see when u are doing assignment like MMA or DFD... you will do it with all the knowledge and keep on researching and researching for new info to get A... and what is the part i like most is... u will help and guide me after u finish.. hahaha xD

Wilson,

you a.. i really duno what to say.. i saw a good side of u.. and also bad side of u.. maybe u will continue to say that u are innocent.. but if only me alone dislike u.. then maybe i will admit, its my fault.. but i think that u and me also know whats gonna on right now.. i dun mean to argue with u.. but atleast... think what u did.. before asking others... if you yourself also duno what you did wrong... then its gonna be a big trouble... nothing much, i just wanna say thx for part a diploma d wilson.. but not part b... thats all..

Sentence above is all from dou dou yeh d JH! <3 <3 <3

no offense... =X

and grats to everyone for finishing diploma... wee~ trip coming on!! :D

i really do appreciate that i able to meet u all!

Thank kiu <3 <3 <3

我。。

我。。到了现在。。

变了很多。。应该吧。。

至少我还很清楚有一件事没变过。。

那就是我的心。。

到了现在。。说短不短。。说长不长。。

可是已经6个月了。。

前几晚。。我一下发了两个梦。。

两个都是关于你的。。

两个都是好结果。。

可是这样让我更加难受。。

多莫希望是真的。。

可是偏偏就知道那只是场梦。。

我自问。。

除了我在最低潮那短短的几分钟的讨厌你，

没有遵守一天一场dota的承诺，

喝了少数的酒之外。。

我敢大声的说我没有做过对不起你的事情。。

甚至分手后到了今天。。

我还是一样。。

一样的尊崇你。。满意你的要求。。

你应该很清楚的。。

我已经我所能的满足你了。。

我说过我会用我温暖的手牵着你。。

带温暖给你。。可是我做不到。。

对不起。。应为我不再是你的谁谁谁了。。

没资格在这样做了。。

但是我一定会尽我所能的满足你。。=D

Life

i still remember my own promise..

which is changing myself.. and the deadline is 22 june...

which means few more days to go...

and i think that i really did change..

no matter personality, attitude, outlook, or even the way i solve problems...

im not the guy who u think u know anymore.. frens around me do notice it...

for me, its just a path in my life which i able to improve and changing myself...

although its not the target i want to be, but atleast.. im moving forward... =)

life, its never easy... learning day by day...

growing day by day...

and finally, my diploma is going to end... last paper exam on coming tuesday... and there is it...

what i able to say is... i do appreciate the time with my college matey... having fun around the college and lots of place... trips around Malaysia... jokes with lecturers...

memories with them its gonna be part of my life and will not be erase!!

sometime, i do wish there is a delete button which able to highlight those unhappy memories and just delete it by clicking a button... but life, its not gonna follow your instruction or going on with what u want...

sometimes, we just have to accept the fact.. although its never easy.. but since it happens, then just takes time to accept it... 1month, 2month, or even longer... nothing is imposible...once u get used to it.. and there is no problem for u anymore...

its been 6months already... and those memories between us is still in my brain... those memories is already part of my life which its unable to be forget.. and i really wondering.. how could u forget our memories so easy? haha... but its ok la.. since u chosen that way, and i couldn't stop u.. just make sure that no regrets in life... once u chosen it.. and thats the path u heading to... no turning back is available... just wanted to wish u goodluck...

and i do really hope we can be back like how we used to be last time.. jokes around everywhere... its fun to chat with u and sharing problems together.. miss those days~ =D

after all, i have to admit that im not that young anymore.. notice that i meet lots of obstacles and gain lot of knowledge about handling problem... but still, life gonna give me more trouble and let me learn more... this is life.. learning non stop... facing lots of problems... but i do believes that, way of solving problems is more than problems happening... (;

我变了。。

我变了。。

我真的变了。。

哈哈哈。。

本来很想改变的我。。

现在竟然不想改变。。

想回到之前的我。。那个我是比较开心和开朗的。。

做回自己有问题吗？

脾气暴躁。。好胜。。爱斗气。。自私。。输不起。。

做人很假。。懒惰。。贪心。。爱逞强。。

一切一切的不良行为。。

我变得越来越离谱了。。感觉到身边的朋友也开始反感了。。

动不动就大声的骂人。。

想起，也觉得自己很恐怖。。

变得很不好。。

这不是我想要的。。

我只想变。。变成一个没有我时，至少有人会想起我。。

而不是一个有和没有都没分别的人罢了。。

这样的人很失败。。我不想这样。。

可是，我越做越失败。。越做越讨人厌。。

我啊。。真的是太好心了。。太容易相信人了。。

往往给人利用。。给人骗。。给人作弄。。

做人。。应该先为自己想想吧。。

不应该什么事都为了别人先想。。这样很吃亏。。

如果是别人觉得我有问题。。那时别人觉得的。。

不一定是我的问题嘛。。

做回自己最重要。。

对吧？

应该是这样想吗？

累了。。

我。。
真的。。
很累了。。
很想什么都不做，然后就躺在一边。。
可是生活那里可以停止呢？
生命停止的那一秒。。就是休息的一秒咯。。哈哈~

朋友和我说。。
我之所以会累是因为我不知道我在拼什么。。
不知道自己想走的方向。。
不知道自己想要怎样。。

每天只是为了生活而生活。。
有意识吗？
这样的人生有意义吗？
为何不想一下自己到底想怎样。。
然后做一个自己想做的决定呢？

说，永远都比做来得容易。。
有人说，只要你肯说，你就会慢慢地做到。。
可是我说了这样久，还是做不到。。
这是我的问题吗？
可能是吧。。
因为我也不想再这样下去，可是就是做不到。。
应该是我弱吧。。

有些失望是不可避免的。 。但大部分的失望，都是因为我高估了自己。。
但是我知道的就是，跌倒了，就要自己爬上来。。
没有人会帮你的。。你需要自己来面对一切！！

今天的我学到了一样东西。。
人，如果不为自己想想的话，真得很吃亏。。
应该奸时就奸。。应该牛是牛。。应该坏是怀。。
只要对得起自己。。就ok啦。。
做这样多的好事有用吗？当人家需要你帮忙时，直接讲ok。。
当你需要帮忙时，有人会帮你吗？
我不会说没有。。有是有的，可是很少很少。。
那我为何还对别人这样好呢？
对那些会帮我的好就够了嘛。。对不对？ XD

需要帮忙？对不起，我不得空~ =D

Broga Hill

Another outing with colleges matey~
Broga hill is our destination for this time..

Went Fun OK yam cha til 10+ then all went to Mr. Beh de apartment overnight.
That apartment is awesome!
Beside no Wi-Fi and astro~ =___="
besides that, everything is nice..
3 room and a big kitchen~
i guess we can throw a party over there next time!! =)

We all wake up at 4am in the morning and went to a KFC at Kajang for our early breakfast~
norm norm~~ its been few months that i din't eat breakfast at KFC... haha..
i guess i still prefer McDonald's breakfast more than KFC... (no offense ya) xP

Reach the btm of the hill around 5.30 and we start out journey to the hill!
Excited til max although not first time la.. but still enjoy everything and like to do something in a group.
This make me feel im not alone and its fun hanging out around with friends..
As i said before, i like mixing in a group alot =D

We reach top of the hill around 6.15+
everyone are very excited and waiting the sunrise view...
and of course, while waiting.. our photographer, Lion Chee and Beh will took lots of pictures for us as memory!
Thx for posting it at facebook..

After the sunrise view ard 7.30.. then we start our journey back home~
tired til the max!
din sleep much and exercise alot.. haha.. i guess everyone is exhausted after this outing.. and of course i can see smiling face from everyone.. =D

If interested to view more picture, kindly press the link below...
http://www.facebook.com/media/set/fbx/?set=a.10150160419617420.307406.525247419
Below are some of my favourite picture..
Hope u all enjoy... :D

Nice Creation from Lion

Jump Picture with Hadrian and Beh

Kamekameha~ XD

Group Picture

Group Picture

Try to guess what im doing xD

A night at Broga Hill (after edit)

A night at Broga Hill (before edit)

Shooting the Moon! =)

Pretend cool~ xD

Smilling Picture

A very rare picture which are Michael Liew and me.. haha

Way to back home!

Mid Term Break

aaaaaaa~
whole mid term break end~~~~~~~~T^T
hmm...
basically, i din rest whole sem break...
basketball and badminton non stop.. hoho
and also hanging around with my 2 new best friend..

oh ya, ytd my fb acc kena hack pula...ZZZ~
c2pid thean wei nie and william ngoo chow hong! -_____-"
this 2 cilaka go ask my fren for my fb password then hack in and change my relationship status to "in a relationship" with william~ =.="
but its ok.. i won't change password..
dun say im stupid a.. i got my own reason... hmm... just dun feel like saying it out here...
just hope those who know my password respect me.. dun ever hack in again without my permission~ XP

hmm... i have been lazy for a week.. and assignments is all around the corner...
but i just duno why that i cant concentrate doing it...
continue like that i confirm not enough time to finish it...
*haix~*
really have to start working hard on my study edy.. last sem jo la!!!
finish it with flying colors and get the diploma cert first la...
stop being so lazy k? XP
wake up wake up wake up!!
time will never wait for us...
dun waste time anymore aa...~ >w<

冷笑话！

我又开始我的冷笑话了！！

1) 顾客：“老板，为什么你的鸡饭里没有鸡肉？”

老板：“那我问你，老婆饼里面有老婆吗？猪肠粉里面有猪肠吗?热狗里面有狗
...吗？珍珠奶茶里面有珍珠吗?佛跳牆裡面有佛和牆吗?电脑里面有脑吗?香蕉船里面有船吗?Facebook 里面有书吗?

2) 有一天小蒲公英问他爸爸:为什么我没有妈妈呢?
那请问他爸爸怎么回答小蒲公英呢???????
因为世上只有蒲"公"英.......没有蒲"母"英

3) 有一天小白兔就去钓鱼钓不到第二天它在去钓也是没收获第三天它去钓的时候鱼就跳上来对它说要是你敢用胡萝卜来钓的话我就揍你！哈哈

4) 有天爸爸带女儿上街.
女儿:哇!BENZ 500
爸:喜欢吗?以后叫你老公买给你.
一阵了.
爸:哇!BMW740
女儿:喜欢吗?我以后烧给你 =)

5) O对0说：你是我儿子吗？
8对0说：老公你看我的小蛮腰美么？
2对Z说：你真笨连我的姿式都学不会！
7对2说：你跪吧！再跪五百年我也不嫁给你！
6对9说：酷就酷呗，还玩倒立！
8看见3赶紧跑去大哭道：大哥，谁砍的！

6) 我要和你们讲个笑话哦，很好笑1下，
哈哈哈哈…哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈…哈哈哈哈…
我的笑话已经说完了…


够冷吗？
哈哈．．还在想着更多的冷笑话来招待朋友！ XD

Back to normal!

Im back to normal.
back to the way i used to live.
back to the way i used to be talkactive.
back to the way i used to make jokes around.
back to the way i used to be noisy and disturb friends.
back to the way i used to be!

and this is ME! =D

its great that im back to normal..
nothing left with me beside memories..
its time to move on...
and yea, i do care about you as usual..
just that its different kind of caring nor...
im not the guy that qualify to care you life a lover anymore.
so, go ahead.. that is not my job anymore..

Friends around me really very important.
for me, my whole life most important properties is all my friends..
all those friends that will help me when i need any help..
and im glad that i meet another 2 best friends which are
William Ngoo Chow Hong and Thean Wei Nie..
both of them are a pair of lovely couple and its fun to be with them!
i do enjoy myself alot when hanging out with them..
they cheer me up, bring joy to me, cares me alot and also treat me as a best friend too!
Niam acompany me dota, Nie chat with me when i need someone to chat with..
Thank kiu...
♥ you 2 alot! XD

Beside both of you, thanks to my new sista! LOL!
Foong Yoke Chooi
er.. for you guys info, i think she is my first admit "sista" XD
hmm... duno why. Maybe is really got 缘分 gua...
everytime when im down.. she will suddenly online at fb and chat with me! hahaha...
and she only on once in a blue moon nia.. lol! =)
thank kiu ya~

你 .. 有 酒 窝 吗 ?

this is the story that i used to tell some of my friends...

enjoy ya~ :D

相传人死后 ，过了鬼门关便上了黄泉路 ，路上盛开着只见花,不见叶的彼岸花 。

花叶生生两不见 ，相念相惜永相失 ，路尽头有一条河叫忘川河 ，河上有一座奈何桥 。

有个叫孟婆的女人守候在那里 ，给每个经过的路人递上一碗孟婆汤 ，

凡是喝过孟婆汤的人就会忘却今生今世所有的牵绊 ，了无牵挂地进入六道 ，

或为仙 ，或为人 ，或为畜 。

孟婆汤又称忘情水 ，一喝便忘前世今生 。

一生爱恨情仇 ，一世浮沉得失 ，都随这碗孟婆汤遗忘得干干净净 。

今生牵挂之人 ，今生痛恨之人 ，来生都相见不识 。

可是有那么一部分人因为种种原因 ，不愿意喝下孟婆汤 ，孟婆没办法只好答应他们 。

但在这些人身上做了记号 ，这个记号就是在脸上留下了酒窝 。

这样的人 ，必须跳入忘川河 ，受水淹火炙的磨折等上千年才能轮回 ，

转世之后会带着前世的记忆 、带着那个酒窝寻找前世的恋人 。

所以朋友们请珍惜身边脸上有酒窝的那个人 ，

无论是亲人 、朋友 ，因为他 ( 她 ) 也许是你前世的恋人 ，

经过千年等待来寻找前世情缘未了的人 ，去完成前世未了的心愿 ，请永远不要去伤害他 ( 她 ) ，

因为不是谁都有勇气跳入忘川河 ，等上千年煎熬之苦 。

盼 ： 来生 ，再续前缘

愿 ： 来生 ，还能再见

Birthday!

was bz celebrate my birthday last week..
everything goes smoothly..
enjoy all the plan going on and on and on! =D

Plan 1
had a yam cha session with bff- louis, kaling and angie..
at I-city..
talk lots of things.. feel like we are back to past that we used to share everything..
feel great with it..hehe
btw, I-city change alots..
to those who havent visit it for long time or din't got a chance to visit it..
faster go for it now!! XD

Plan 2
went "Tao" japanese buffet at sunway giza with college bro..
enjoy the mood of snatching all the food with each other..
when cannot finish then playing games to finish it off.. haha
went for a drinks after that dinner...
feel great when hanging out with college bro without rushing assignment feeling..
i guess we can be good good frens n bro if no nid to do assignment! hahahaha~

Plan 3
went the garden cheong k with niam, nie and fen..
long long time din meet someone so high in k room...
the last time i saw was i'm form 5..
that time i still very very enjoy my life in secondary skul and always so high with my gang.. hahaha..
and thx for the present! i <3 it alot~ hehe

Plan 4
went movie with kelvin, anna , keith and louis..
its fun to be around with them... can smile happily without wearing a mask! haha..
thx bro..
and we watched big mama that nite..
its so so so so funny!

conclusion is...
i like to hang around non stop! LOL~
when mixing in a group, i feel that im very very happy..
so i enjoy this feeling very very well! =D

最大的敌人！

对我来讲。。
人生最大的敌人只有两个：
1）时间
2）自己

人啊~人啊~
时间过了就不会回来了。。
每一秒都在过。。
Tick Tock Tick Tock...
几秒又过了。。
但是我只是在电脑面前打字。。
哎哟。。如果不珍惜时间。。做事慢慢来的话。。
我们人生成功的机会就下降了。。
一定要和时间赛跑！！
把握每一份每一秒！！
让自己的人生更美丽。。更灿烂！！

至于自己。。
如果要进步。。不要给自己借口。。
借口是自己给自己的。。
如果不努力。。哪里会有进步呢？
不付出。。哪里会得到呢？
不要再给自己任何的借口让自己进步了。。
加油吧！
没有东西是做不到的～

失去了所有东西后，
我已近不再怕任何的东西了。。
只是看我要还是不要罢了～　＝）

现在的我～

现在的我．．就像一个太阳花．．
你对我而言．．就是一个太阳．．
我的方向还是朝着你．．可是你照的一大队的东西．．
开朗的你永远都是开开心心，很活泼的把气氛带起．．让周围的人都笑得很灿烂～
但一旦遇到问题时，你就会藏起来～天空就变成了一片黑暗．．
让人觉得寂寞和孤单～
开朗的你也会落泪．．让关心你的人也伤心，心痛～
很想关心你．．开导你．．陪在你身边～
可是一朵小小的太阳花肯本没资格说些什么．．只好在一旁安静的看着你．．
因为太阳花知道太阳永远都不会只属于太阳花一个的～

太阳花也有情绪的～太阳花也会伤心的～
太阳花背后的身影．．是太阳永远都看不到的．．
太阳花不想让太阳知道自己伤心的一面．．所以只好把辛辛苦苦的痛藏到背后~
太阳永远都只知道太阳花面前的美丽的花瓣而不知道太阳花背后的伤心～
可是有时忍不住．．所以花瓣不再美丽．．

这就是一朵太阳花的心声．．
这样的故事，够明白吗？

刚刚看到一首新歌～
罗志祥－怕安静
歌词好像在唱着我叻～哈哈哈
有像的部分吧～
有感动到～突然真的很怕安静～
不不不．．应该将使本来就很怕安静 XP
我真得很怕安静．．少了你吵．．我真得很不开心，很不习惯．．
这就是那首歌的link =D
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=C51Lfxirll8

只要我想开心。。我就会开心。。LOL!

if my mind thinking want to be happy...
sure i can happy d..! =D
there is nothing can define as happy...
some people can be happy even they got no much money..
they can live happily although they sit inside a wood house and eating porridge...
some rich dude with a big house, nice car..
but their life is so stress and not happy at all..
actually, if you think positively..
live happily.. enjoy every single moment in your life..
live no regret~
then you will be a very happy person..
with lots of frens around..
because your smile will bring happiness to everyone around you..
no point being so emo..
being emo will only makes your frens pity you but not being your real frens..
so, what for still continue emo uh?
lets SMILE from now on!! =)

had a lesson from dad just now while dinner...
gain alot of knowledge..
lots of unexpected things happen during dinner just now...
hmm... or maybe i really have to change few of my attitude..
dad did mention some of my weakness and some of my bad attitude..
hmm.. is now thinking how to overcome things and makes life easier now..
its never be late to start thinking it now.. atleast i start~ XD

---

had a birthday class from cousin, Vivian and Prisilla..
thank kiusss~ =)
like the card alot weh.. hehe..
and of course.. thx to nick for introducing the PORK burger and PORK meal~ LOL
its so freaking delicious~ hahaha...
thanks for the cake, card, fruits, cendol, chicken wings, snacks and lots of food~ =)
likes it alot~ weeeeheee....

=(

said le will not appear means will not appear...
disappear on one person nia ma.. got so hard meh?
just only one..!
there are few thousand million, uncountable human on earth..
just disappear from one person isn't hard at all~
just u wanna do it or not~

but sometime,
even if i want..
even i tried my best..
even i really MIA...
got no reason why..
i just cant control myself...

sorry...

Melaka Trip~ weeee~ =D

Just back from melaka yesterday~
superb tired and fun trip! =D
love it alot.. haha... ^^
we reach melaka at about 1pm on friday..
then went to a shop makan cendol.. yum yum~!
a cold cold cendol at a hot hot weather...
this is totally awesome! weeheee~

went for a walk at "red house"
famous place at melaka.. no nid explain bout it much ho?
as a malaysian.. we should know about it~ xD

as you can see from the picture below~

the weather is super HOT! XP

Me< > Lion

btw, much more picture will be upload soon..
due to the slowpoke lion havent upload it yet~ xP

after that, we went back our villa have some rest and playing water? LOL!
of course, poker is somethings cannot be miss out in our gang! XD
some poker, some playing water, some playing ball...
everyone seems so busy ar? XD
after around 2 hour of playing.. went shower and rest awhile

ard 7pm at nite, went to jongker street to hunt some snacks and things...
especially is hunt chicks which michael despo for it..! XD
and as usual, we failed~ ><
but seriously, jongker street's pasar malam is different with KL~
too bad its raining... if not gonna be very nice! XP

ard 9.30pm reach villa and start our bbq dinner!
*everyone sibei hungry edy* XD
chiong all food and drinks..
then some fall asleep, some jump to pool and continue the fun, some continue bbq enjoy bacoon~ xD

next day went to seremban eat bbq crab~
er.. not that nice as i expect..
but ok la.. better than ntg to eat ma~ xD

Basically whole trip is really very enjoy, happy and fun!
this is the trip that i want since last year~
but due to assignment and exams..~ =.="
so we delay it until now..
but..it is not 100% enjoy for me nor.. XP
or maybe is this is not the fun i want..
still havent get used to life without you..
wishing the day come as soon as possible..
=(

别让双鱼伤心

双鱼是多情

但也专情

双鱼多情 但最终心里只为一个人付出

双鱼无法对几个人同时付出真心!

双鱼是有韧性的

即使被伤了很多次

依然固执的认为

真诚一定能换来真心

但迎来的只是直接的打击

双鱼搞不懂为什么会如此

双鱼其实不怕拒绝

但最怕冷漠的拒绝

如果被拒绝 那么就彻底些

双鱼会默默的惦记对方

即使对方回应少的可怜

双鱼也会放下身价

主动发个短信打个电话

但往往得到的是冷漠的回应

双鱼一直在挣扎

因为真心喜欢

把自己逼到了悬崖边

双鱼想通了

真诚的心变成了灰色

热情的态度变的冰冷

让双鱼放弃不容易

但让你认为可以挽回看起来没脾气的双鱼

那你就大错特错了

如果说白羊女的冷漠

狮子座的冷漠是冰山

那双鱼的冷漠就是北极上万年的冰层

所以太多人搞不懂

为什么双鱼会突然变成一个人

那么冷漠

其实双鱼也搞不懂

为什么没有人敢接受自己的爱情

双鱼就是这么固执

爱了就要有回报

爱了就要YES OR NO

给我希望

却时刻让我绝望

再有韧性的双鱼

也会在这种打击下无情的离开!

为什么温柔的双鱼就这么走了

我只能笑笑....

为什么一开始就不珍惜呢

怪谁呢!

一个冷漠的双鱼

会远离任何与你有关的事情

你的眼泪

你的热情

你的挽回

物及必反在双鱼身上会得到完美的体现

有太多说人反感双鱼的墨迹和多想

如果不爱你如果不喜欢你..

双鱼真懒的对自己不感兴趣的人墨迹

这也是为什么

一方面双鱼挺能说的

一方面双鱼却很少有朋友

人际圈也很窄

这也是双鱼冷漠态度的另一面!

双鱼觉得没什么

朋友不在多少

在于真诚

双鱼不会像白羊那样和一群朋友打成一片

因为太累

因为对所有人真诚本是不可能的事

因为双鱼太讨厌虚伪!

12星座的结束

意味着轮回

双鱼有时候的心态真就像个老人

因为懂的太多

所以打心里不想伤害对方

但再慈祥的老人也有不满的时候!

双鱼永远也无法拒绝一个爱听自己墨迹

看着自己的双眼顽皮着微笑的老公

因为在双鱼来看

诉说是重视

倾听是尊重!

让双鱼专心对你太容易

只需要向双鱼诉说你的心事与不开心

同时倾听双鱼的喋喋不修就可以了

难道双鱼的墨迹就这么让你厌烦么!!

别忘记了 双鱼的墨迹蕴涵着许多用的找的道理!

双鱼的墨迹和忽悠完全是两回事!

一个轮回往往会忘记前生的所有

一旦双鱼爱的人让自己心灰意冷

绝对轮回

那么你就失去一个拥有一生幸福与被爱的机会!

别尝试让双鱼冷漠!

除非你真的不在乎

不然你的冷漠只能被双鱼加倍奉还

不留余地

不留情面!

敲破白羊女狮子女天平女的冰层不难

但如果让双鱼对你的心冰封

那纵然用三味真火也无济于事!

笑着面对！

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA~
made this decision already.. =D
no regret this time..
this gonna be the last thing i do for you!
一定要幸福!

If you love two people at the same time, choose the second one.

Because if you truly loved the first one, you wouldn’t love another one

saw this quote on twitter today..
its so meaningful..
and dun tell me about if 3rd one appear...LOL!
the third one will never appear if u love either the first one or the second one~
haha..

when you make a decision already..
please do not regret with it..
here is a story about it.. =D

one day, a teacher gave an opportunity to two student..
ask both of them to walk in a apple farm and choose an apple..
both of them is asked to chose the best apple according to what they want..
they can only walk from front to back..
no return..
once u chose the apple than that apple gonna be yours..

The student A choose one after few trees...
and student B choose one when he walk until last few trees....
but end up both regretting..

Student A regret for choosing an apple too early..
because he meet a better apple after choosing the apply in his hand...
Student B regret for not choosing apple earlier..
because when he chose apple that time..
he notice that there is no better apple at the back row anymore...

Conclusion :
No matter which decision you make..
dun regret!
See clearly is that what you want..
then just move on with the decision u made!
^^

如果有一个女生或男生

放下自己的身段主动联系你

一次……

两次……

三次……

如果有一个女生或男生

放下所谓的尊严

有事没事都联系你

一天……

两天……

三天……

或者

你觉得Ta很廉价

或许

你根本不在乎

甚至

你以为一切都是理所当然的

只是Ta毕竟只是一个人

一个很平凡的女孩男孩

Ta也需要有人疼、有人照顾

终有一天Ta会累了倦了

Ta会哭着下定决心再也不主动了

因为每一次的主动

换来的只是更深的伤害

Ta宁愿没有这样一个借口

让自己痛苦

Ta会离开

再也不打扰你的生活

Ta会离开

悄无声息

从此你的生活不会再被打扰

突然的感谢罢了

其实在爱情里只要幸福

主动与否并不重要

只是不算爱情的爱情

主动的代价则显得太大了

说一句最难听的俗语

人都爱犯贱

不属于自己的东西

却花很大的气力去追求去挽留

最后还会被伤的遍体鳞伤

什么世界上最遥远的距离不是我在你面前你却看不见我

而是我上线了你却隐身了

我隐身了你却上线

其实我们很多时候

没有必要挽留不属于自己的东西

要找就找个深爱自己的Ta

毕竟感情是两个人的事情了

你一个人再累、再去用心呵护

感情最终还是会破裂

希望大家

放下该放下的

珍惜该珍惜的

因为人生很多时候都在不断的选择

失去的只能说

那是不属于你的

就算你留下了

那也不是你想要的结果

Ta只会对你热几天冷几天

看人家心情

你会隔几天心就被刺痛

没有开始就不会有结束

所以希望大家开始的时候都慎重

更希望男生都能够大度点专一点

既然选择那个女孩就要给她幸福

别做对不起女孩的事

女孩也都大度点理解点

有时候给男孩留点尊严

有时候别太孩子气了

爱毕竟是两个人心灵碰撞的结晶

真爱无限

希望大家都能找见自己的另一半

别搞的心灵憔悴

珍惜身边的彼此

我想我爱的不是他

我爱的是有他的那段时间

valentine's day

Its 14/02 again..

another lonely valentine..

i tot i'll be with you to celebrate this special date..

but things change...

plan gone..

but its ok with it..

i still got frens

thx to my college mates who date me out after the class and celebrate this unique day..

and we known it as gay day for us.. coz all of us is guy! LOL! =D

just notice that..

its already 4 weeks...

but things in my mind din change much...

u are still the one that i miss most until now..

but what i can do is to force myself not to think...

and keep on telling myself that i dun care.. non of my business... u r not the special one for me anymore... so ur things its not related to me anymore... =D

hope this lies will become fact soon~

its never easy to put down...

after giving me so much memories and caring...

this period with you its not fake.. everything is real..

u just gave me lots of memories~ =D

haha.... past is still past..

so i'll walk back my path very soon... will not disturb u anymore! XD

college starts ytd..

im really have to start my own new life..

i really gonna start hardworking chiong back my study this sem...

i wanted to get A for this last sem..

no more joy or laziness pls!

hope everything will go smoothly for me nor...

recently watched back 海派甜心..

really very touch...

天意弄人...

although lots of problems happen, but when both of the lovely ones able to walk back on the same way...

its very very sweet... very very touch... and i cant control my tear~ XP

don't know when i'll meet my last one and stop being hurt...

what i have now is memories which unable to be play back..

and nothing much i can do..

haha...notice that my post is so confuse...

yea.. this is what my mind thinking..

i really duno also...

my mind also very luan... i duno what im thinking too...

haha~ sot jo! =D

feeling better! =)

feeling better alot!

atleast no insomnia and able to sleep til 12+ noon today morning! LOL!

i was so surprise when my mum came in my room and wake me up today morning..

opps.. i mean noon! LOL!!!

i cant believe that i able to sleep til so late...

its been months that i din't sleep so well already~ =)

thank kiu to a friend who tell me something...

and indirectly helps me..

and i think he duno that he help me already too.. hahahahaha :D

anyway, thx william.. =)

watched all well end well ytd~

its awesome..

able to enchant some knowledge over the movie...

its funny, meaningful and lame! XD

I wanted to thanks nick, vivian, and kei as my cousin...

they acompany me when im down..

they din ask much about what happen but they just bring me out..

cheer me up...

and cares about me alot..

Thank Kiu...

and of course... chu, ivan and lion too...

both of them did lots of things for me too! :D

thanks guys.. u all really helps me alot when i need friends or someone to be around...

appreciate what you all did to help me...

lastly, i really wanted to say again...

im enough with this...

tml is a new day for me..

new sem starts..

emo, its time for me to leave you...

no use i continue emo like that...

nothing will change...

but what i know is..

u n him really happy then ok edy! =)

teeeheee.... u happy then i happy.. remember i said before rite?

but i just hope we able to be back frens like last time..

maybe really need some time to be back to last time gua...

i dun wanna lose a fren like u... =X

hope u understand~ XP

direction~

awww..

i need a guidance ler...

outlook direction found...

but attitude direction duno yet ler...

lots of my frens said not good to change..

just be back myself will do..

but i don't know ler...

i feel like changing...

this type of attitude will only hurting myself non stop...

i dun wan to hurt myself anymore...

i duno how long i can stand... =.="

any suggestion of outlook and attitude to follow? XD

i know i know...

lots of people say~

just be yourself...

er.. act i just wanna try a new type of attitude nia..

if i dun like it..i will change it back to myself..

and of course.. i need help now XP

can anyone tell me my old attitude last time? @@!

do anyone still remember it?

can please kindly leave a comment on the chat at the right side?

please do not hesitate to say it out..

just honestly say out and thank kiu! :D

很失望！

真的真的很失望~

当初是你讲我们可以继续做朋友或知己的。。

但是现在呢？

你对我。。

比普通朋友都不如!

别讲谈天，连我跟你开个玩笑都讲不关我的事~

那还有什么要谈？

你因该很知道我不喜欢人家对我讲不关我的事的。。

我有和你讲过的。。

我知道你和我要有一定的距离。。

但是如果你我心中都没事了，那还要怕什么?

我已经放开了。。

只是有时想起而emo下罢了。。

我已经没事了。。

但是你对我的态度真的很不好。。

如果你连朋友都不想做那我无话可说。。

让我知道就好。。

我会离开的！

我真的很很失望~

成长中~

tik tok tik tok tik tok~
every second is passing now..
and im growing day by day...
hair also getting longer and longer...
3weeks edy...
and its useless for me to continue doing this...
why not i put down everything, and try my best to find back myself??
我想為自己找一個藉口，一個讓自己停下來的藉口.....
不願別人看見自己的傷口，不想讓自己周圍的人但心，不想讓別人同情自己..
没有人会真的帮我的..除了真心的好友..但是不多...

its enough..
no point still being so emo..
its time to find back myself..
that hyperactive.. talk active... super lamer...
what else? @@?!
haha.. dun care la..
its time to be back to myself and continue my path~ =)
but of course..
my changing will never stop..
i will still continue change my attitude and outlook as well..

The reason why i want to change is because...
the same problem happens for two times...
i think its not their fault.. its my fault...
if not why the same problem happen to me again?
so, after so many nites of figuring...
i guess i know whats the problem already.. and im gonna change it..=)

recently keep on repeating an old song
安静 - Jay Chou
have a try of it.. its like singing my mood now...
and of course.. not only jay chou..
Danson Tang's new album also very good in healing my broken heart! =D
music do reminds me of her.. but it also the best things to heal it up..
atleast i dare to listen those music which is related to her now..
and i able to control my tears edy! teeehheeee~ =)

aww...everyone starting they college, skul and work...
but i still having 1 week holidays.... damn sienx neh~ ><
any plan ma? i dun wanna stay at home alone! T.T
please bring me out~ xP

STUPID

how many times i told myself
not to see..
not to care..
not to text..
not to do..
not to listen..

but why i just cant control myself...
the way u treat me is hurting me alot...
even my heart is trying to be fren with you also hard..
the way u treat me.. is like treating someone worse than a friend..
u make me feel like... aw.. i duno how to say it anymore..
suan le bah...

happy, its not hard..
i can smile..
can laugh..
can crazy and mad as last time...
but.. this kind of happy is not what i want..
from the moment im with you..
the happiness that i get from you..
its like.. a sweet for me..
once i taste it..
i cant forget the taste.. and it attract me to eat it more and more...
and thats the reason i stop eating lolipop until now...
because that is the sweet i don't have in my life... and i really want to feel it again...
too bad everything its too late...

活在怀念中的人都不能真得很开心，因为只是会怀念而错过和珍惜身边的人。。
thats what i used to say to you..
but i forget to say it to myself too.. xP
its time for me to let go and start for my own life and chiong for my own future..
haha.. i know i know..
i said this sentence alot of times...
but im a pieces horoscope..
dreaming is the most happy moment for pieces...
thats why im one of that like to dream non stop too~
and i really trying my best to stop thinking and face the reality myself..
atleast i know that without you, i still have few frens beside me..
which able to acompany and support me when i need them...
thx to those who really being with me for so long..
especially lion, beh and chu chu~
u all really help me alot..
gave me lots of suggestion and advice on how to solve problems...
thank kiu~ :)

last but not least,
if this is what u really wants...
i think i should do it as what you want me to do...
no point i still doing things like that...
totally no point...
its enough~

新年快了！ Happy CNY! :D

Happy chinese new year guys! :D
New beginning for me!
everything gonna change~
changing need time, not a short period..
as i used to promise myself..
23/6/2011 will be the date to see back this few months things..
and see the process of changing...
of course there will be negative and positive...
even its bad, i dun mind also..
because is a way to protect myself from being hurt~

如果我从没遇见你，如果我从没爱上你，如果我一开始没坚信，
也许我就不会是现在的这个自己。
但是我不后悔，因为你也给了我美好的回忆。
这几个月里，我看到了很多，学了很多，作了很多，了解了很多
很多很多平时没有看到，学到，做到，了解到的事。

but i really din expect we will end so fast..
u are the one to make me believe in love..
and the one i love after 3 years din't couple..
but then everything end up with the same ending as my past..
after this time, i really no confident to start another new relationship anymore..
really duno how to trust and love another girl i guess...
really need longer time to get used to it...xP

现实是很残酷的。。
不想在做好人了。。
这样用心对待朋友。。有用吗？
没用！当我需要朋友陪，聊天，谈心事时。。
没一个出现。。
真得很失望～～
发觉对人太好也是一种不良行为。。
这样可能会害了他们。。
一直活在人家的帮助下。。
这样会造成别人学不到新的东西。。
还会遇到麻烦就找你。。
这样的话，你想帮的那个人会成长吗？
不会！
不如你让他常使他想要的东西？
可能这样的他学到的东西可能更多！

Past is Past...
Its already 12am..
Happy Chinese New Year Everyone! =)
wish everyone have a nice and happy year!
lets forget the past and start working hard for our future..
nothing is imposible.. trust yourself more than everything..
believe in miracle so it will happen~
lets smile to face the world! :D

双鱼座的我

最心软の双鱼　－　对

最好辩の双鱼　－　对

最悲观の双鱼　－　对

最浪漫の双鱼　－　不对

最温柔の双鱼　－　对

最多情の双鱼　－　不对

最粘人の双鱼　－　对

最爱幻想の双鱼－　对

最不理智の双鱼－　对

最易被骗の双鱼－　对

最爱撒娇の双鱼－　对

直觉最准の双鱼－　对

最爱思考の双鱼－　对

智商最高の双鱼－　不对

最善解人意の双鱼－对吧

最有同情心の双鱼－对

最不势力眼の双鱼－对

最有服务欲の双鱼－对

最易神经质の双鱼－对

最有书卷味の双鱼－不对

最会讨人欢心の双鱼－对吧

以上是本人的意见罢了～

双鱼座 大多在眼角都有一颗泪痣.

双鱼座 不会随便爱上一个人.

双鱼座 很容易被感动.

双鱼座 很敏感，看似什么都不计较，不细心，其实是在包容你，所以会假装什么都不知道.

双鱼座 吃软不吃硬，要知道双鱼座脾气很硬，不会允许别人的不信任和挑战.

双鱼座 很重感情，只要是真心认定的朋友，都会真心对待.

双鱼座 害怕孤独.好想依赖人.却从来不曾真的去依赖，因为已习惯独立孤独.

双鱼座 总是很任性和小孩子气的固执，即使是错，下次还是固执.

双鱼座 不习惯主动跟别人套近乎.

双鱼座 有点懒，那是因为我认为那些事，都不需要费工夫浪费时间.

双鱼座 显得冷漠，不易接近，自己也不会主动去接近别人.

双鱼座 天生具有的第六感，总凭感觉认定着所有的人和事.

双鱼座 很胆小又害怕失败，但表现出来都是强悍的一面.

双鱼座 看似坚强，内心却会很容易受伤.

双鱼座 即使遍体鳞伤，一个人躲到无人的角落里哭泣和自我安慰.

双鱼座 前一秒哭泣，下一秒或者下一秒的下一秒仍然会微笑

双鱼座 生气的事很快就会忘记，不记仇！

双鱼座 记忆力时好时坏，有时候前一分钟放的东西后一分钟叫它找，它一定找不到，但有时候又会出奇的好，到现在它还记得

双鱼座 别人对自己的好会铭记于心，有恩必报.

双鱼座 现在的生活很迷茫……找不到出口……

双鱼座 很会流泪，但很少在人面前流泪，如果真的流泪了，就是真的忍不住了。 双鱼座的人太会掩饰， 即 使受伤也会和朋友谈笑风生，似乎看不出双鱼的一点点忧伤.在人面前 双鱼永远开朗，很活泼.

双鱼座 却永远无法对自己公平

双鱼座 喜欢一个人承受痛苦,喜欢给朋友看到她开心的笑容。 其实背后的辛酸只有她道。

双鱼座的我就是这样的．．

但是我还是爱我的星座．．因为这就是我自己！ =)

变！ Change!

Changing is the only thing i can do now..
no matter how hard or not willing..
i still have to change my personality and attitude!
my current attitude is hurting my alot...
due to helping frens, treat them too good..
sumtime ho.. when u treat some one too good..
it will cause pressure for them.. of din give chance for them to learn...

thx to my "sister" herbal~
for telling me that...
男人不坏，女人不爱。。xD
i duno its true or anot.. but i think it make sense...
since ter are lots of example around me..=.="

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went shopping with nick at ts, sg wang, farenheit and pavilion..
fun and tired day...
im enjoy spending all the money and get new cloth!
now i know why girls so despo for shopping...hahaha
but seriously.. i duno i will wear anot after i buy...
coz those shirt and shorts oso not my usual style...
zzz.. but nvm la.. give it a try.. since i wanna change everything wat! :D

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see her for few hours ytd nite..
i duno what im thinking...
totally cant concentrate for badminton...
running place, placing, smashing all totally fail..
worse than normal...
stupid brain!
ZZZZ~ duno la..
dun feel like writing it out here...
purposely or not also not my problem..
i cant and qualify to care anymore...
just a fren wat... not gf anymore..
so should be non of my business~
think so much for wat...
forget about it better =D

勇敢的我.. Be Brave!

No matter how unhappy im..

i still able to make a decision..

i duno whether its right or wrong..

but this is what i can do right now...

let go..

stay away from you..

disappear from you life..

take you out from my heart..

yea.. its never easy..

when u see this.. i think u wun believe me oso rite?

er..

just give me some time..

i'll prove to everyone that i able to do that...

as i used to said...

nothing can stop me if i really want to do it...

this is my real attitude..

yea yea... when i want to do something.. i will do it with my 100%!

although i know it will hurt me..

but i will still never move back..

and this cause all the hurts that i facing now..

but its no longer gonna hurt me anymore!

because i know that i want to do it and i sure able to change...

no matter how bad is the situation.. i believe that i still can do it..

miracle do happen!

it only happen if u really believe it!

i believe it very very well.. because i saw miracle happens before! =D

i just need some time to prove it...

trust me!

nothing is imposible...

This is my choice..

and u know your choice too..

u chosen him already.. then concentrate on him...

dun care about me anymore..

no nid purposely to hurt me anymore...

i know u purposely hurt me to make me hate you..

make me forget you..

if u think this is what you want..

then you get what u want edy...

so, i think i should disappear from your eye...

i guess this will stop all the pain between us..

right?